I Confess ...of no hope

Now matter how many times I tell myself, "I have to be stronger! I have to be stronger!"
... it seems that I keep getting weaker.
I can't find a way out of this hole.
It keeps getting deeper and deeper,
and my resources appear to lessen and lessen.
Why are the walls getting more slippery?
With hope as my fingers ..I can no longer hold my grip
but I'm not ready to let go..
I want to fight!
But with what intention am I holding on?
The notion that I may someday be free?
What aspect of my situation guarantees that future?
...nothing.. well nothing yet.
Again! With this hope thing! ugh ...
Let it go...